Monday, December 5, 2011

Sometimes I wish I were a little kid again, skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts.

things are never gonna be the same again.

I was a bit hesitated whether to stream Sukira or not tonight because I'm pretty sure what is going to happen if I do but after 5 minutes the prog started, I decided to just face it and try my hardest to cherish the last moment of the two DJs.

I can already feel the lump in my throat when they played the first song for tonight which is Memories (yeah, of all songs ;_;) but then I just ignored it since they looked so happy and their faces were all like 8DDD fooling with each other and all. They spent most of the 2 hours talking and reliving what had happened in these last 5 years and 3 months. From the very first day they started DJ-ing until today. Everything went smoothly until they played Tablo's No Tomorrow and I suddenly saw Hyukjae sobbing beside Jungsoo. He obviously can't control his emotions any longer when Jungsoo finally gave his goodbye kiss to the listeners. Their last goodbye kiss. From that moment onward I started shedding tears as the sight of Hyukjae with his head bending low on the table is so heartbreaking. Idk, he stayed in that position for quite a while until at one point, the staffs and Donghae (who happened to be at the studio too today) came in and consoled him to stop crying. lol at the amount of tears that I shed when the screen showed the empty seats after the prog finished and when I started to realise that there's no more EunTeuk DJ banner at the back like before.

It took me a while to close the Sukira tab when it finished although there's nothing more at the screen. Idk, I....just can't believe it's already over. If Sukira's a child, we were the ones who watched this child grow. It's painful to see how this child being passed to someone else's hands now. I know it's even harder for the 2 DJs to accept this as Sukira hold a great meaning for them; they started DJ-ing a few months after their debut which is on 2005. This is a place that they go for every weekdays from 10 to 12, a place where they share everything that can't be told in broadcast shows, a place that they can be their true self.

I know I'm not there since the beginning but after 3 years knowing them, streaming Sukira have become like........my routine for every weeks. It's those time when I can really feel their existance. How is their days at that side of the world, tired or not, their schedules, the stories about their fellow brothers etc. The feel is like listening to two normal peole that are trying their best to cherish every moment with their listeners, not as the superstar and well known members of Super Junior. It's weird how their voices can easily change some of my days that wasn't at their best to be better.

They're too many things that I'll miss tbh. I can already expect this gonna happen as they said they wanted to take a short break 2 weeks ago. I know it's not going to be that 'short' as they claimed. The announcement of desicion that they made to stop DJ-ing few days ago seriously took me by surprise. It's just too sudden. But afterall I'm glad that Sungmin and Ryeowook are the one who are going to take over their seats after this, not other artists. Let's just hope the slot of 'Super Junior Kiss the Radio' will last forever. And to Leeteuk and Eunhyuk DJs, thank you for these wonderful 5 years and 3 months. Thank you for always accompanying me through the nights. It's great that we've come till this far. One more memory that I could cherish in this fandom. Because Sukira is just..........Sukira. It always has this special place in my heart. Please do come back soon as guests if not as DJ anymore. I know all these feelings won't fade that fast, but it will eventually heal.

The memories which were tearing my heart apart They’re now ripped off the calendar They’re fading as the year goes by I pretend to live forgetting you

Read more at: http://koreajapanmusic.blogspot.com/2011/11/tablo-tomorrow-ft-taeyang-download.html
Don't forget to take out with full credits
the memories which were tearing my heart apart,
they're now ripped off the calendar,
they're fading as the year goes by,
there's no more tomorrow,
till you come back, everyday is yesterday.
-Tablo, No Tomorrow

Thursday, December 1, 2011

Sigh

What is this fuss about MO.A Concert D:

OTL everyone is talking about it. Looks like I need to keep myself away from laptop for a few days. Can't stand to see the amount of updates about the concert /cries/ Guys the groups that are coming are all my favourite ;_; Miss A, B1A4, f(x) and yeah SUPER JUNIOR. MY BOYS ARE IN THE SAME COUNTRY AS ME AND WE'RE BREATHING THE SAME FRIGGIN AIR. WE'RE LIKE FREAKING CLOSE YET SO FAR ADSJKLPMRT IDE. TELL ME WHAT SHOULD I DO WITH MY LIFE. I want to meet them so bad tsktsk. I don't understand why I didn't buy the tix. What am I thinking at that time D8 Well act I was thinking to save money for SS4 plus there's a rumour that said they probably won't come to Malaysia for this tour. That means I need to go to Singapore if I want to see them once again. So yeah, money man. I need to save money if this is true. But I feel a slight regret for not buying the MO.A tix now. Amani and I made a plan to buy the concert and flight tix few days ago lol. But what to do it's too late now. I'll def go if I were in KL because they give 50% disc now as the tickets are not sold out :( Poor thing I live in Narnia which I need to consider so many things before going. Sigh, my fail life.

btw on a brighter note, I got my Perfection album yesterday! YAY! /dances/ I know I'm a bit late but err......just lemme spazz for this moment.


and yay I got Zhou Mimimimimimi's photocard! Hihi isn't he gorgeous?

I was watching Running Man in my room when mom suddenly shouted from the living room asking me what did I buy this time when she saw Pos Laju at the gate trololol XD Automatically burst out laughing in front of my mom because this is the 3rd/4th time that van came to my house in 2 WEEKS time bwahaha. rofl but no worries, mom understand her daughter very well so she never ban/stop me from buying this kind of stuff. Well my mom is cool n____n

Sunday, November 27, 2011

screwed

Sleeping hour is so messed up since I started my holiday a week ago. tsktsk I planned to take a nap last night due to excessive fatigueness lol so I set my alarm at 9.30 before I went to bed at 8.30. End up woke up at 11.30 because I set my alarm at 9.30.................AM. Good thing I woke up on my own hurr. Supposed to get back to sleep but I killed my time by watching Running Man till 4AM. OTL guise don't watch this variety show after midnight. It's a real torture to hold your laughter because everyone's sleeping and you don't want them to wake up due to your non-stop laughter and giggles and everything. Running Man is scary seriously. IT'S SUPER DAMN HILARIOUS IDE. Then I head back to bed at 4AM(tried to sleep eventhough I'm not sleepy at all). rofl counting sheep for 30 minutes and poof I was in dreamland again. And finally woke up at 12noon. WHAT IS MY LIFE

Friday, November 25, 2011

buing buing part 3-Opinions and beliefs

Do you believe in fate/destiny?
Yes, I do believe in them. And this may sounds a bit cliche but I believe everything happens for a reason. We'll find them eventually. It's just a matter of time n__n

What you wish for on 11:11?
haha I don't make a wish upon falling stars or fallen eyelashes or on 11:11.

Do you consider yourself lucky?
Yes, I am def lucky for having so much great things in my life. Super great parents and sister, a place to live in, wonderful friends etc. I whine at times but that doesn't mean I am not being grateful with what I have now. It's just normal, I have my bad days too lol.

Do you believe in aliens or life on other planets?
Hewhew what if I say I don't believe in aliens?

What’s more important to you: strength of the body or strength of the mind?
Strength of mind ofc. You got nothing if you are not brainy enough even if you got super muscled body lol.

How important you think education is?
IMPORTANT VERY VERY SUPER IMPORTANT lol. For obvious reasons, duh.

If you were the president, what would you do?
President of?

If you could change one thing in the world, what would you change?
tsktsk I want SME moves their company near my house so that I can stalk my precious oppas and unnies for every single minutes and feed them with homemade cookies or cheesecake and freely meet them whenever I want and fangirling like there's no tomorrow and make the octopus dance in front of yesung until we see rainbows and unicorns and vomits faildust and and otl wailt

okay t'was a joke. tbh I really want to change the viewpoints of some people that are being racist towards religions. Islam to be exact. I want them to see how beautiful Islam is and their actions in putting the blame on this religion wholely just because of what being done by some asdjkplmrt people for the sake of Islam (like what they said) is totally wrong. So yeah it's pretty much like that. I'm not good in words.

Is it the thought that counts? Or is that phrase circumstantial?
Another tough question woohoo. They are all important act. If you got a great thought but you just keep it by yourself or fail in expressing what you actually want to say with words, so it's pointless. But sometimes we cannot believe in words that much. Some people hide behind their words just to make sure that their true self is not being revealed. oh god what kind of question is this D:

If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do?
Do what a Muslim supposed to do and be with my family till the last second of that 24 hours.

Which movie character do you most identify with and why?
Idk how to answer this question.

buing buing part 2-Music, movies and books

How often do you listen to music?
everyday everytime every single minute haha

What kind of music you like?
Ballad/Dance (depends on mood)

Do you like to dance?
yesseu! but I'm so fail in dancing orz

What was the first concert/show you attended?
Super Junior's Super Show 3.

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today?
Oh well yes.

Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past:
tbqh there are so many songs that takes me to a certain memories but as this ques just need one song, so I would go with Breathe Easy by Blue (rofl accidentally wrote Breathe Easy by 'Glue' when I'm answering this question haha omg I'm so funny). I remember listening to it like for everyday because it's a hit song back then in 2004. My sister is an avid fan of Blue at that time and like other fangirls, she bought this Blue album and we kept listening to the casette like for every single day just to spazz over Duncan, Anthony, Lee and Simon's voices (WAO I STILL CAN REMEMBER THEIR NAMES o_o). The highlight of the song is Lee's high pitch towards the end of the song when the four of them sings the line "tell me why". Haha you can't imagine how we squealed over that part everytime we listened to that song. This Blue-madness happening during my UPSR year and listening to it now just bring back the memories once again. I remember how I was struggling like mad to get 5A at that time lol. The memory is still vivid in my mind.....the feelings otl *shudders* I still can remember it.

A song that’s been stuck in your head
def All About You by Mcfly. This song keeps playing in my head for these few days orz. It's the song used for the credit part of Invincible Youth Season 1. tsktsk I love this song /so/ much, it makes me remember the good old times that I had when I was watching this variety show few years ago. I miss G7's dorkness ;_; I still think that Invincible Youth Season 1 is the best Korean variety show that I'd ever watch. They won't let you sit still for a second. You'll find yourself dying on the floor at the end of each episodes for laughing so much. Oh god the amount of dorks in this show ide ;_; <3

Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play:
Miss A-Love Alone
DBSK-Keep Your Head Down
Loveholic-Loveholic
Beast-On Rainy Days
Ken Zhu-Qing Tian
Nell-1.03
Seo Taiji & The Boys-I Know
4Men-Baby Baby
Jerry Yan-Only I
F4-Goodbye

A book you want to read/have recently read:
I /really/ want to read the books written by Haruki Murakami rn. She seems to be a good author. But oh well you know how hard it is to find such books here *sigh*

Describe your dream library
Man did I tell you how much I love books? I can get really excited whenever I go to the bookstores. I want my very own library looks like what they have in Harry Potter. The books are everywhere. I'll fill every corners with the books written by my fav authors, from non-fic to fic, biography etc. Sobs just lemme read all the books in this world.

Last movie you just watched
I don't have much keen on watching movies tbh because I would prefer dramas more. Sekali Lagi's the last movie that I watched anyways.

You like watching what type of movies?
Romantic comedy and any movies with sad storyline? lol

Thursday, November 24, 2011

buing buing-Favorites

Something to kill our boredom. Hihi let's answer this tagged post everybunyh!

What is your favorite thing to do?
Eat.

What’s your favorite color?
White.

Your favorite bands/singers?
Super Junior (obviously), Nell, CN Blue, f(x)

What’s your favorite movie?
Secret.

What is your favorite book?
My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult hands down

What is your favorite word?
Don't have any.

What is your least favorite word?
Any cursing words lah.

What is your favorite type of food?
SPICYYYYYYYYYYY I LOVE SPICY FOODS FEED MEH SPICY FOODS

Your favorite ice cream flavour?
CHOCOLATE BCOS EVERYTHING ABOUT CHOCOLATE IS ASDJKLPMNTRWSFGH

What’s your favorite animal?
I don't like animals.

Dogs or cats?
again I don't like animals. (and idk why I always think that cats are dirty ;~; sorry)

What is your favorite flower?
Lily (err but sometimes it can be rose)

What is your favorite season?
waylt Malaysia iz no 4 season sobs. But yeah to answer this question, I'm going to say it's autumn. I always have this unexplainable feelings whenever I watch/read any scenes that involves this season. It's somekind of sad lonely and gloomy feelings but I love it. orz I don't know how to explain this.

What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die?
Mecca (this is a must), Italy (Venice, Rome, Milan the heaven of shops and galleries and Verona where Romeo and Juliet live in and omg every single places in Italy is precious okay I want to travel around Italy someday sobs let this be true pls), Paris (how it feels to sip your tea in a huge France restaurant near the Eiffel Tower in a cold evening while watching the passers-by outside the window? I want to experience it someday), Japan and Korea (note that this is not just because of my obsession over K-pop but I always want to learn their culture, the way of living etc plus South Korea is so damn effin beautiful okay ;_;)

What are four things you can’t live without and why?
Laptop, contacts/glasses, moneyhhh, diary. (yes i still can live without my phone)

What’s your favorite television show?
I don't watch tv that much lately but I gotta say Lizzie McGuire is still one of my fav tv show until now. I used to watch it with my sister every Friday(?) night when we're still in school and hihi that tv show is farney and cute lol. (I love Gordo <3)